Love and hate

Sunday, August 18, 2013
   Alright guys, so I been trying to push this off for as long as I could, but It was going to happen anyways. Today I am going to make a blog about my love life. How should i start this? I am a pretty bad writer so I'm just going start by saying this, I am a flirtatious teenager, I am those teenagers that Fathers are scared to let their daughters date because they know too well that It is going to end badly. I wasn't always like this what people call a flirt or player, but there are reasons why I am like this, I cannot say that all teenagers who date a lot are the same or have same motives because i wasn't a flirt right off the bat but it happened over time and the drama that affects us. The reasons i suspect that teens date a lot is because of the way they grew up because when we start to get their first girlfriend or boyfriend and they are so in love and never want to lose them, but everyone feels like that, they are in love with that first person their with and i don't blame them. But when they break up one of the two are probably sobbing their eyes out and everyone around them are going to feel bad for her. Now this is the important part. Everyone around her will start saying "hey you don't need him/her there are always more fish in the sea or he/she wasn't good enough for you It's fine. Ok so this is where people start to get the idea its fine to keep dating and not needing to worry because there is always someone else. That right there is my idea on how teens are alright with the idea of dating multiple times, but i could be wrong also because there could always be different reasons like the one I am going to tell you now which is about me. Before eighth grade I was a real push over, and i was those really studious Asian kids who didn't really care about much and I was also a wimp back then. Now this is where it gets interesting, a year pass and now I am going to eighth grade i did not really care about it that time but then my family told me we were moving so for eighth grade I went to this really interesting school I was exposed to kids who did drugs, homosexual and so on, but at that time I was shocked because I thought those were just on t.v and one of my first friends were a drug user and I learned about so many different things, like how to get girls and build up my confidence and to stay away from certain people unless i want to get hurt. By the forth month in school I finally got to know this girl and we ended up dating, By that time i pretty much knew everything about the school and neighborhood I lived in but since she was my first girlfriend I didn't know how to act talk or anything, her name was Monique and she was those athletic types and I was still a little chubby back then so I was still having problems building up my self a steam back then so I was afraid to lose my first girlfriend so i wasn't sure what I was doing back then, but I knew I was pretty stupid for the things I've done like accusing her for things she didn't do or thought, i was a very naive back then and thought she would leave me for her best guy friend but after two to three weeks we stopped talking and ended It but when valentines day came I had no one obviously and  without a doubt Monique best guy friend ask her out but not that I was surprised. Now most of you might be wondering where am i going with this story? Well I'll just tell you and skip the story and get to the end. after Monique i wanted to make things right when i get a new girlfriend, when I finally got myself another girlfriend, now that was in the summer where i started to actually tried not to piss my pants talking to a girl. this girl was as beautiful as a bouquet of roses. Sorry i started rambling again so what I am trying to say is that I dated many girls and there are always some little thing that gets in between them and me. It's mainly my fault for not trying harder and my stupidity for it but sometimes when i see one of my ex's I get this ich on my chest and i start to feel like someone just stuck thirty pound weights on to me out of no where. The reason that I dated so many is because i simply gave up on long relationships because i know its not going to last long so i been trying to just ignore that fact and kept going, i honestly just lost hope for a long term. Well that's my story and for whoever read all of this I just wanted to say thank you for listening to my story.


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